I PASSED MY EXAMS! Yes, I just had to go and ask, because I was so worried, especially about Ancient Runes. It was distracting. I wonder why. But I passed them all with perfect scores. In fact, I even got extra credit in Herbology for putting the names of the plants in each answer in alphabetical order next to the year in which they were discovered. Thanks, Professor!

So summer plans, anyone?

I see you, happy Tuesday, from across the room. You watch me, and I watch right back. Neither one backs down. And why should we? This is but a mere staring contest, no more, no less. It's rather poetic the way your eyes gleam when you read or speak or smile, especially when you smile. I read thousands of stanzas filled with trillions of literary devices scattered within the depths of your pupils. It intrigues me beyond anything. I can't stop reading you, like a book whose plot I cannot discern, whose characters I cannot quite place, whose setting is that of a world outside the realm of imagination, where all that exists is the feeling one gets in falling head first into this book of your soul.

Is it not fair that two souls are kept apart by the forces that be? True I have no real understanding of your intent, but you need not hide from me. I can see you for who you really are. You think no one is watching you some times, but they are. I am. I see what no one else can. My words may be naive, but my feelings are true. I cannot deny them, nor will I attempt to. I cannot wish my feelings away as if they were the tide. I embrace them and their consequences.

It is selfish, but I can't go without knowing what it's like to be the girl whose reflection lies in the mirror of your heart.


Almost finished with my Transfiguration essay.

[Private]
I HATE HIM!

Why does he have to be so....... I don't even know! He just frustrates me beyond all holy hell, and I can't think. I can't think or sleep or anything. He's just always there on my mind, and when I see him, I have to hold onto something, as if the earth itself shook from under me.

It isn't fair. He's leaving. I'll never see him again, of that I'm certain. And then I go off being a bloody idiot to him. Brilliant, Rose. Absolutely fucking brilliant. Smartest witch of my year? Hardly so. Not the way I ruin perfectly simple human interaction.

I haven't gotten anything else from my secret admirer. Guess even that's gone down the loo. Everyone's off getting boyfriends and girlfriends, spending time with them and all I've got to spend time with are my textbooks. Why am I not normal? Why do these things happen to me? Why him? Why couldn't it have been someone else?

You've really outdone yourself this time, Rose.
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I'm going for a walk.

Happy Easter!



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( Private to Shane )

Home again. We were just here, weren't we? Just a few weeks ago. Mum and dad were a lot quieter then. They still look at each other funny across the dinner table at times. Usually, dad'll mention something, and mum will give him a look. It's as if they don't think Hugo and I will notice. Sure, it used to work just fine when we were younger, but now, it just makes me curious as to what they're thinking, what they want us to know.

Dad's taking the day off tomorrow to take Hugo and me to the Alley. We need supplies for school. He doesn't think we should go on our own even if I am of age. It's too dangerous, he says, especially since Aunt Ginny. I don't know what to tell him. I am of age, and I could take care of Hugo and myself just fine, but I don't want him to worry either. Besides, I haven't spent time with him since in a while. Anyone want to join us?

And Barty? I'll help you with your Runes work. Just let me know when you're coming over, and I'll make time.

Happy Easter, everyone.

Now that yesterday's childish antics are over and done with...

Honestly, when I find out who put Drobbles gum in my brother's hair, I will do some serious damage. We spent hours trying to get it off yesterday. Curly hair isn't exactly the most ideal place to stick your discarded gum, thank you very much. Poor Hugo. He's had more accidents this year than Andrew MacMillian ever before.

Anyway, I sent daddy an owl asking him about the sunflowers I received just the other day. He replied saying they didn't come from him or mum. So... I guess.... thank you to whoever sent them? If you can even read this?

It's amazing to think that we're more than half way done with the school year. In a few months time, I'll already be a seventh year. And then, off to the Obliviator program. It's so exciting! I was telling Algie just the other day how I can't wait to learn all about the inner workings of the mind. That's always intrigued me. I think I've always wanted to be an Obliviator ever since I found our what they were all about. Funny how that is.

I've also been considering taking my History of Magic NEWT even though I'm not taking the class due to scheduling issues. I've got the book, and I'll most likely purchase next year's book as well for a bit of light reading in my spare time. It's really quite fascinating learning about how the wizarding world came to be the way we see it today. History is ever changing as well, and we are very much a part of history as our parents and grandparents, etc, etc, are.

It seems like I have a lot to say tonight. It's just one of those days when you put your quill to parchment and write, write, write, write, write nonstop. I wish I could write something more interesting though. I'm afraid I'm not very exciting. History of Magic and sunflowers. Yeah, that's a whirlwind, Rose. But I guess, not everyone can be a whirlwind of fun. Some people are the brains behind the operation, while some are the muscle, etc, etc. You can't expect everyone to be the same; we'd all be boring.

I guess what I'm saying is that I believe everyone deserves a chance at everything. No matter how silly it may be, everyone deserves to take part in something they want to do so long as it doesn't hurt someone else. Of course, that takes me full circle to the very first thing I said. While yesterday's antics were stupid and childish, you really can't help them. They are still children after all.

JAMES???






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[Private to Hogwarts]
Happiness. The dictionary defines happiness as the state of being delighted, pleased or glad. It goes on and on as 'happy' is a word not easily defined, nor is the state of happy which equals happiness. But what really is happy? Happy isn't delighted or pleased or glad. Happy can only truly be defined by the things that cause happy, things that don't often please, delight or make you glad. Those, in my opinion, are degrees of happiness. What causes happy then transfers toward a person, who interprets that happiness in whichever way they see fit.

For example, getting high marks on an exam or an essay can very well produce happiness. I get happy after receiving a high mark. Someone can get ecstatic when receiving a high mark, as they probably worked very hard on it and felt they deserved the points. Someone else though can simply feel pleased, if they just did it in a off-hand sort of way. Happy is then too vague, and other forms of the word must be used.

So, really, happiness is far more complicated than the dictionary leads us to believe.

( Private - Easily breakable by family.... and Shane )

[Hogwarts and Family]

There! All caught up! On work, on sleep, on everything. Mostly.

Not that things are back to normal or anything, but they seem as though they are. I'd seriously like a Time Turner, at least to help me with classes and all. Mum says she was once given a Time Turner just so she could take several classes at once. I know I've already got loads more classes than I'm supposed to, but I really think I can do it. So long as nothing else happens that can severly deter me from my classes.

Charms Club this weekend. It's good to be back in the swing of things.

There. One entry without even mentioning him.





Damnit.

( Private - Breakable by Family and Friends )

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( Private )

[Hogwarts and Family]

I'm back. Anyone notice?

Thanks again for all the notes and all the help everyone's given me. Prefects, if you need me to cover for any of you for whatever reason, just let me know. It's strange coming back in the middle of the week, but Uncl Professor Weasley was coming back, so I decided to follow. It's going to be a bitch rather difficult to catch up again, but I suppose I'll have to shut up and deal.

Anything happen as of late?

[Family]

Are you all okay? I miss you. It's odd being here without the lot of you. I love you very much. Thanks for the sleepovers. I hope to see you soon.

[Hogwarts and Family]

GREAT JOB GRYFFINDOR!!!

Even though I'm kind of freaking out

I think I'll be going back to school. I'm sure there are loads of assignments I need to catch up on. Things here at home are quiet. I think this week has just had so many ups and down, and I, for one, think I'll feel better once I'm back in the swing of things. And I want to see

Fatima and Matthew, how were classes this week? Anything interesting happen?

[Maddie and Lily]
So, I didn't want you both to have to deal with anything more, but there is something I have to tell you, because I might explode if I don't, and I honestly cannot deal with this on my own any more. It's nothing horrible, but it is something.

Sleepover at my house? I think I can sweet talk mum into making us cupcakes.

So, dad brought me to the Ministry with him. He's showing me around the office and all. I know mum offered to bring Hugo, but I'm not sure what he's decided. We're out to lunch now, and there's someone smoking a fag at the table right next to us. I don't think I'll be able to eat. This coughing attack won't stop. How can people smoke and eat at the same time? It seems fairly impossible. I guess I'm just against smoking all together, because I'm allergic. I guess we'll have to get our lunch to go.

Later, dad promised he'd take me to the Obliviators Department. I'm really excited about that, as that is the career I'd like to pursue. And...



Dad's looking at me funny. It's not my fault I like to write. He says the only writing allowed should be on the menu. He jests, I'm sure. He knows I like to write a lot, and he should be used to it by now. Mum and I do it all the time.

And speaking of Mum, here she comes now. She's with Hugo, but she didn't go to work. Were they at your place, Lils? I know Hugo wanted to see you. I think he's really worried about you too.



change of handwriting

oi, you lot!

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Daddy says hi.

( Private )

I've never cried more in all my life.




( Later Private to Maddie and Lily )

( Private (readable by Shane, because he's on her mind) )


( Bit of a stronger hex but not that much )

[Hogwarts and Family]
I didn't bring my books, so I'll be really behind when I get back. And as frightening as that sounds, I'm sorry to say that I don't care. School will have to wait. Family comes first. I know loads of us have said this already, but good luck to Gryffindor on their match Saturday. I don't know when I'll be back, but at the moment, that's neither here nor there.

I do apologise for bailing on my Prefect rounds on Saturday night, Nora. I had some shoulders to cry on. And I'm sorry for whoever had to do extra rounds because of me. I'll make it up to you when I get back.

My family is as well as can be expected. This is going to take time to get over. I don't expect any of us to ever be the same again.

[Hogwarts]
I'm going to be out for a few days to go to my aunts' funerals be with my family. If someone can take notes for me or something, that'd be greatly appreciated.

Charms : I've got half of my work done, but I don't know if Uncle Professor Weasley will be canceling classes for this week or not.

Potions : I never thought I'd say this but I need an extension for that essay.

Astronomy : I can turn in my star chart. It's already finished.

Transfiguration : I can turn in my essay early as well.

Herbology : I seriously need help with I'm going to need an extension for my outline too.

Defense : I think I should be fine, unless there's an assignment handed out this week.

Arithmancy : I need an extension for those problems. Maybe Vee can help me.

Ancient Runes : I'm dying I haven't been able to get around to reading that chapter.



This is the worst ever.

Happy fucking Valentine's indeed.

[Private to Hogwarts]
I would like to thank everyone for their condolences for our family. They are greatly appreciated. While we are taking the time to deal with this tragedy on our own terms, we ask that you please be patient with us. Some of us would rather not discuss it with others, but some of us might. I ask that you please understand and respect our individual wishes, whatever they may be.

That said, I would also like to send out my condolences to those families, who like us, also suffered tragedies. Please know that if at all possible, I would be more than happy to help out in anything anyone may need.

[Family]
I love you all. Every single one of you. I hope you all know that.

( Family (including Teddy) )

Happy Valentine's Day, everyone. Again, thank you to everyone who helped to make the grams sale a success. I truly do appreciate all your hard work. Anyway, I should be getting my books ready for Charms class. I hope everyone has a nice day.